Psychopathic conwoman’s pity play fails to derail Kavanaugh’s Supreme Court bid

I’m sorry, but I didn’t believe Dr. Christine Blasey Ford for a second.  I saw a psychopath hiding behind big glasses and hair bangs while she dealt out her pity play (probably professionally written by a novelist).  The glasses and bangs made it a little difficult.  One should look for ‘flashes’ of contempt and arrogance, moments of ‘stepping out of character’ to test the emotional effect, etc. — the glasses and bangs (psychopaths very often wear glasses to hide their machinations) made it almost impossible to notice these things.  However for me, her voice (‘I’m just a fragile flower, woe is me’) and emotions (delivered on cue and ceasing as quickly as they came on) didn’t ring true at all.

For grief, you want to see autonomous behaviors.  Watch vets discuss fallen comrades.  First they lose control of their bottom lip.  Then the voice.  Then the nose turns red and runs and/or tears flow.  This matched Brett Kavanaugh’s behavior, not Ford’s.  Now of course, one can always be wrong.  If I were a betting man I would bet 10,000 dollars on the above, but not a 100,000.  However I would bet that 100,000 on the psychopathic and/or psuedologic and/or seriously disturbed mental state of the other two claimants, Deborah Ramirez and Julie Swetnick.

Kavanaugh was lucky that for psychopaths, less is never more.  They can’t resist guilding the lily.  If one charge is good then a hundred over the top charges are even better.  Ms. Ramirez’s and Ms. Swetnick’s allegations actually weakened the attack on Kavanaugh’s character.

However the multiple charges were designed to enable Feinstein’s feigned incredulousness of “you mean you are calling all three liars?!!”  “Exactly!”  Dianne Feinstein is not a psychopath, but in my opinion, morally corrupt and bankrupt, distilled evil, 200 proof.  The corrupt always ally with the psychopaths – they form an eternal tag team.

We’ve seen this game played before, the 11th hour unprovable, undisprovable charges, against Roy Moore, The psychopathic gang stalking of Judge Roy Moore.   The Republican Party made a moral and strategic error in not going to the mat for the judge.  This later attack on Kavanaugh would never have happened.

In terms of the rallying cry of “Believe Survivors,” I can only say that I recall the similar cry of “Believe the Children”.  That campaign resulted in the personal destruction and imprisonment of numerous absolutely innocent of the charges adults affiliated with the McMartin Preschool facility.  Psychopathy played a role here also, with a psychopathic D.A.  (The McMartin Preschool hysteria.)  Lesson learned:  fantastic, fantabulous charges should always be accompanied by a request that the ones making the allegations prove they are not psychopaths.

To keep Brett Kavanaugh from being eternally damaged goods in the eyes of his opponents and much of America, the three accusers should be invited to prove just that.  This, they won’t do — so the argument should be made directly.  If any DNA is available it should be tested (though this area is a little murky).  If any committed provable perjury they and their attorneys should be pursued legally (it’s worth noting that psychopaths almost always have psychopathic attorneys).  For example there is a serious allegation that Dr. Ford is an expert on polygraph tests and has coached others on taking lie detector tests.  This should be pursued to see where the truth lies.

Psychopaths move through life like sharks through the water, but only because no one calls them on their behavior.  “Hello, I’d like to introduce myself, my name is . . .”, welcome to my blog.

A hearsay tale involving Andrew Cuomo

Hearsay can’t be considered evidence.  But individuals are certainly free to decide if they believe a particular hearsay account to be more likely true or more likely false.  This story is at one level of hearsay (to me, and two levels to you), there is an individual who alleges to have been an eye/ear witness to alleged bragging by Andrew Cuomo, then there is the individual who relayed the story to me.  I trust my source did not make up this account, and I believe my source believes his source — the foregoing doesn’t necessarily mean anything but I want to add it to the mix.

If I could suggest how others approach the following, I’d suggest the these questions.  Does this account square with what you know of Mr. Cuomo, either personally or from the public record?  Could you see him planning and doing the following?  Is he Machiavellian enough?  If so, could you see him wishing to brag about it?  Is he arrogant enough to commit to such a strategy?  Etc.

This account, involving his divorce, goes as follows.  Nobody, of course, wants a divorce to publicly devolve into a blackmail contest of mutual dirt slinging and airing of dirty laundry.  Particularly not a politician.

Allegedly, Andrew Cuomo and his wife agreed to a trial separation, with a stated (not in writing) agreement that sex with others was acceptable.  A setup for a trap?  Mr. Cuomo allegedly then hired a private detective to follow his soon to be ex-wife.  At an appropriate time to catch his wife in flagrante delicto, alledgedly the private detective and Mr. Cuomo burst into the hotel room (or whereever), cameras in hand and flashes a-poppin’.  Voila, a nice quiet divorce.

What’s your opinion, could you see Andrew doing such?  Is he the type of personality that would want to brag about it?

Would you want him to wield facial recognition/AI tracking powers?  https://www.vocativ.com/396745/memo-new-york-called-for-face-recognition-cameras-at-bridges-tunnels/index.htmlhttps://www.zerohedge.com/news/2018-07-21/big-brother-surveillance-begins-cuomo-unveils-facial-scanning-new-york-toll-plazas.

After the last election, I recall Mr. Cuomo being asked what he thought of Ms. Teachout.  Paraphrased from memory, ‘Ahh, political season.  Gotta love it.  Opinions, everyone has one’ and then laughed.  Let me translate that from psychopath-speak.  He was calling her an asshole.  The complete phrase, of course, is ‘opionions are like assholes, everyone has one.’  I’m sure all the other psychopaths laughed too.

Then there is his latest “America was never great”  flap.  Psychopaths in the thrall of groupthink are dangerous, they easily lose the thread.  He and his advisors no doubt thought they were destroying Trumps’ trump card, his ‘Make America Great Again‘ campaign.

Finally, on Andrew, have you noticed his voice?  Its very ugly.  I believe he lacks the empathic soul that animates a normal human voice.

Moving on, how about Chris?

 Fox News host Tucker Carlson poked fun at CNN’s Chris Cuomo Friday, playing a bizarre video Cuomo posted on Instagram.  . . .

In Cuomo’s video, he makes a few vague comments about last summer’s “Wonder Woman” movie before making air kisses.

Cuomo says, “‘Wonder Woman,’ amazing. We finally had a female director of break the $100 million mark. The film means more than just its box score. What does it mean to you? Here’s a little intrigue–I wanted to be like Wonder Woman, and I’m gonna wear a shirt that says it.”

“What does it qualify as intrigue that Chris Cuomo wanted to be Wonder Woman? Did he ever wear that shirt? What’s with the air kisses? There are so many more questions,” Carlson said.

He sarcastically continued, “It’s better to understand Chris Cuomo for who he is. An artist, poet, seeker, shaman. The question is not, what the hell is Chris talking about, but what is Chris Cuomo trying to teach us, all of us, humanity itself?”  http://dailycaller.com/2017/10/14/tucker-plays-bizarre-clip-of-cnns-chris-cuomo-talking-total-nonsense-video/

At what age does an child’s gender identity solidify?  It would seem that significant parts of Chris’s personality are arrested prior to that point.

More, CNN’s Chris Cuomo Excuses Antifa’s Violence Because ‘All Punches Are Not Equal . . .’ —  Chris Cuomo: We At CNN Can Possess WikiLeaks Emails, But You Can’t —  CNN’s Chris Cuomo: ‘Fake news’ insult ‘equivalent of the N-word Uh, . . ., guys, gals,  . . .

Finally, if someone would give me a toothbrush from each of Mario, Andrew and Chris plus 15 thousand dollars, I’ll give you the Cuomo bloodline, the Cuomo psychopathic bloodline.

They don’t bother to hide it, do they?

Sarah Palin blasts Sacha Baron Cohen, says she was fooled into doing interview

Nobody likes being slimed by a psychopath.

“‘I was shocked it was so easy’: ​meet the professor who says facial recognition ​​can tell if you’re gay”.

This individual who doesn’t believe in guilt or free will should turn his AI photo machine loose on faces like his own.

Panic At The Disco’s Brendon Urie comes out as pansexual: ‘It’s just people I’m attracted to’

‘It’s not the sex of the individual, it’s the person’ (paraphrased).  That’s deep, man, deep.  Yeah, love the one your with!  Plus, all cats are gray in the dark!

Annoying neighborhood psychopaths and anomalous occurrences

I’ve decided to take pics of annoying neighborhood psychopaths (or probable psychopaths).  The criteria could be almost anything.  1) I might find them annoying for no known reason, that’s good enough for me.  If my emotional reaction says they are annoying, I assume the cause just hasn’t reached my consciousness yet.  (I’m with those who say every psychological growth stage is still within our psyche and can be drawn on.  I urge everone to reintegrate with their 5/6 year old self who knew whom they liked or trusted).  2) It might seem to me that I run into them too often.  3)  It might seem that they keep showing up in too timely a manner as though checking up on my health after attacks.

Unfortunately this is a pic of a pic.  I do have him on higher quality video also.  Regarding the above I would say that he qualifies on all 3 categories above.

A nearby store has been the site of a number of anomalous occurrences (were they more than that?, you tell me).  I hesitate to discuss such matters, it seems to lose me visitors and commenters.  Oh, well.

I used to go to this store almost everyday for a coffee and a pastry.  One day there’s an individual, whom I had never seen before, in front of me at the self serve coffee machine.  Nothing unusual, except I really disliked him, for no known reason.  And then, he left the milk out for me — ah, a nice guy.  Then I see there’s only enough milk left in the carton for one cup of coffee.  That’s odd.  Then I see there’s another open milk container in the refridgerator section.  That’s very odd.  I’d never, ever seen two open cartons in this very small store at the same time.  Who wants a stinking coffee anyway?  Two anomalies are enough for me to alter my path.  There was also at least one more anomalous event concerning a cup of coffee there.

I also used to buy a particular chocolate bar almost everyday.  One day I went in and there were 7 – 8 individuals crowded around the cashier at the candy counter.  I had to sort of push through just barely able to reach the bars.  However somebody had conveniently left a bar sitting flat on top of all the others making it easier to grab, what a nice person.  So I grabbed it and left a dollar on the counter.  Then as I left with chocolate, I suddenly realized that all the people around the counter knew each other and were sort of moving in coordination (obviously I trust messages from my subconscious).  Plus the responses of the few that I had to squeeze by with ‘excuse me, excuse me,” seemed wrong to me.  One of the things that is impossible in this world is pretending not to know someone (it doesn’t matter if they pretend to ignore you or if they engage with you).  They recognized me.  Who wants a stinking chocolate?

The individual in the pic didn’t play a part in any of the above occurrences.  But he did play a peripheral part in another anomalous event.  I have to qualify this story as being from the ‘I’d never believe it, if it hadn’t happened to me’ file drawer.  There was another store where I would often buy a particular item.  One day as I approach the door I see the same neighborhood psychopath (or likely psychopath) chatting with a plain clothes policeman sitting on a milk crate pretending to be a homeless panhandler (recognizing undercover cops).  OK.  Then immediately inside the door there is a fake mentally ill homeless person wearing five or six shirts.  OK  How do I know he was fake, his ‘intent’ was all wrong.  Then I noticed that he actually wasn’t doing anything, just standing there.  So I went over to the proper shelf, and there was only one sample of the item available.  OK.  Then, in the line, the guy behind me struck up a small conversation — but he didn’t look at me as though I were a stranger.  OK.  Then as I walked from the front of the line to the cash register clerk, he suddenly said , ‘oops, he had forgotten his money and would have to come back’ and left the line.  OK.  However both he and the five shirt fake mentally ill person seemed to suddenly relax and almost smile at my making the purchase.  Hmm.  Then as I left the store I stepped around the corner of the building to make a cell phone call.  Then the fake homeless cop almost knocked me down tearing around the corner carrying his milk crate as though his shift was over.  Hmmm.  That’s too many anomalies for me, who wants this stinking item anyway?

The fake homeless cop (undercover cops use this ruse quite frequently) would be easy to ID.  He’s around 6′ 2 or 3″, ruddy complextion – would sun burn easily, 40s maybe, lanky physique but very muscular, tousled dirty blondish hair, 2 or 3 inches, toothy, rangey (if that means anything), etc.

Some might say all the above have credible reasons for happening as they happened and that I’m imagining things.  OK, maybe, but I don’t think so.  I say that the reason that I’m alive and Kathy Krajco, Linda Mealey and others are dead is that I read intent and they didn’t.  There are some 12 to 15 psychopathy truth martyrs as I look at it, a few had mysterious deaths, the others died from seemingly natural disease processes — but I wouldn’t bet money that that was true.

Another day I’m sitting in a local coffee shop.  I notice a psychopath I’d never seen in the neighborhood before in the ordering line.  However, he displayed no intent of actually desiring a coffee or a bagel, displayed no ‘yum, yum, yummy, I can’t wait for my bagel’ anticipation.  Further I suddenly realized (there I go again) that his intent was hostile and that I was his target.  He left before me.  As I left some 5, 10 minutes later, I see him walking at an angle to intercept me.  So I walk along and suddenly stop when we are about two feet apart and we stand there staring at each other.  That’s close enough so there are no secrets and it was obvious that this psychopath knew and hated me.  But I actually didn’t sense any intent of immediate harm.  I’ve noticed before that sometimes psychopaths like to ‘mark’ their targets.  The actual attack took place later that day.  In NYC there are often one/two story scaffolds up around buildings for building inspections.  The way they are built funnel pedestrians into two lanes and if there is a sidewalk cafe into one lane.  You could call it a double pinch point.  So I’m walking through such a double pinch point (across the street from the first cafe) and suddenly someone rushing by me brushes me physically in his hurry.  I’m thinking,’whoa, I guess he was in a hurry.’  Then, ‘wait a minute, that was with purposeful intent, he brushed against me purposely, what’s going on here?’  So I spun around and there’s a woman around six inches behind me, holding her purse up to her chest with one hand, while removing something from it with the other, while staring intently at what had been the back of my head.  She must have moved in close in coordination with the brush by, I was supposed to notice only the brush by.  Unfortunately I didn’t have the presence of mind to tackle her and empty her purse.  She snatched her hand out of her purse and just hurried away.  A fentanyl swab behind the ears (http://time.com/khaled-mashaal/)?  A psychotic anxiety level causing agent (i.e. to cause suicide)?  A prussic acid aerosol to cause a heart attack (or something more up to date)?  Who knows?

Anyway, the idividual pictured at the top has lately been looking at me like the cat that ate the canary, so I decided to write this down.

 

2 more for the mix, the ruthlessness gene and the wanderer gene — that genetic psychopathy cocktail

Wanderer gene — X-linked androgen receptor (AR) gene, short GGC repeat polymorphism

“a variant X-linked androgen receptor (AR) gene, predisposing the father to behaviors that include family abandonment, may be passed to their daughters causing early puberty, precocious sexuality, and behavior problems. The results of a study of 121 White males and 164 White females showed a significant association of the short alleles of the GGC repeat polymorphism of the AR gene with a range of measures of aggression and impulsivity, increased number of sexual partners, sexual compulsivity, and lifetime number of sex partners in males; and paternal divorce, father absence, and early age of menarche in females.”  http://www.hopepress.com/html/abstract_91-100.html

X-linked means that this psychopathic candidate gene affects both males and females (female chromosomes of course are XX, males, XY), and androgen receptors ‘dock’ to male hormones such as testosterone, which is what we want, again for both females and males.  Linda Mealey posited that psychopathy was sex-limited, i.e. required an androgen environment to ‘flower’.

[S]ociopaths are individuals on the extreme end of a normal distribution whose genetic component is (1) polygenic and (2) to a large degree, sexlimited.  [Sex- limited genes, not to be confused with sex-linked genes, are those which are located on the autosomes of both sexes but which are triggered into expression only within the chemical/ hormonal microenvironment of one sex or the other. Common examples include beard and mustache growth in men, and breast and hip development in women.] If a large number of the many genes underlying sociopathy are triggered by testosterone or some other androgen, many more men than women will pass the threshold of the required number of active genes necessary for its outward expression.  According to the two-threshold model, those females who do express the trait must have a greater overall “dose” or “genetic load” . . . https://pathwhisperer.info/2011/08/07/the-sociobiology-of-sociopathy-an-integrated-evolutionary-model-linda-mealey/

Ruthlessness gene — arginine vasopressin receptor 1A ” AVPR1a”, allele 334 or short RS3 repeats

Prosocial hormone

Ebstein and his colleagues decided to look at AVPR1a because it is known to produce receptors in the brain that detect vasopressin, a hormone involved in altruism and ‘prosocial’ behaviour. Studies of prairie voles have previously shown that this hormone is important for binding together these rodents’ tight-knit social groups.

Ebstein’s team wondered whether differences in how this receptor is expressed in the human brain may make different people more or less likely to behave generously.

To find out, they tested DNA samples from more than 200 student volunteers, before asking the students to play the dictator game (volunteers were not told the name of the game, lest it influence their behaviour). Students were divided into two groups: ‘dictators’ and ‘receivers’ (called ‘A’ and ‘B’ to the participants). Each dictator was told that they would receive 50 shekels (worth about US$14), but were free to share as much or as little of this with a receiver, whom they would never have to meet. The receiver’s fortunes thus depended entirely on the dictator’s generosity.

About 18% of all dictators kept all of the money, Ebstein and his colleagues report in the journal Genes, Brain and Behavior1. About one-third split the money down the middle, and a generous 6% gave the whole lot away.

Long and short

There was no connection between the participants’ gender and their behaviour, the team reports. But there was a link to the length of the AVPR1a gene: people were more likely to behave selfishly the shorter their version of this gene.

It isn’t clear how the length of AVPR1a affects vasopressin receptors: it is thought that rather than controlling the number of receptors, it may control where in the brain the receptors are distributed. Ebstein suggests the vasopressin receptors in the brains of people with short AVPR1a may be distributed in such a way to make them less likely to feel rewarded by the act of giving.

Though the mechanism is unclear, Ebstein says, he is fairly sure that selfish, greedy dictatorship has a genetic component. It would be easier to confirm this if history’s infamous dictators conveniently had living identical twins, he says, so we could see if they were just as ruthless as each other.  https://www.nature.com/news/2008/080404/full/news.2008.738.html

Ruthless Gene Test For Marital Happiness

Individual differences in allocation of funds in the dictator game associated with length of the arginine vasopressin 1a receptor RS3 promoter region

Earlier post:

Genetic cocktail — psychopathy genetic markers

http://www.slideshare.net/slideshow/embed_code/31766563?hostedIn=slideshare&referer=http://www.slideshare.net/adonissfera#

DRD2 A1, DRD4 7-repeat, 5HTTLPR/rs25531, COMPT (or COMT) Met108/158, MAOA-L (corrections welcome).

So, . . .which one, if any of these, is the no fellow-human-feeling, no empathy, no guilt gene, . . .where do full-genetic-dose psychopaths such as Stacey Castor or Michael Swango fall on this (actually they are not full spectrum full dose psychopaths — they did have the capacity to exercise restraint and to strategize, but on the other-humans-are-just-bugs continuum they are full dose)?

 

This is seriously creeping me out

For quite a while I’ve been cyberstalked by a self admitted adword hacker who is also a psychopathic NYPD officer (https://pathwhisperer.info/2017/08/31/my-own-nypd-badged-secret-psycho-cyberstalkerstalker/).  The ad below is now showing up with great frequency.Most of my psycho stalkers hacked adword ads are clear and pointed death threats.  They started showing up when I started a FOIL (Freedom of Information Law) process against the NYPD — there is something he doesn’t want to come out.

He even threatens my dog.  On 11/14/17 this was the only ad that showed up for around a hour and half, tens of times during that period.

Same mutt color, same dark muzzle, same shape ears (one is even lop eared from a bite), obvious German shepherd blood — I take the 30 or 40 of these showing up in one evening, replacing all other ads, as a threat.

So what’s the point of the young lady in the Ebook ad?  A couple months ago I ran into a 30ish young lady with this same hair dye and very similar looks in the neighborhood.  Then I realized I knew her, sort of.  A year and a half ago we used chat down in the dog run, though I never knew her name and haven’t seen her in the park since then.  Does this ad refer to her?  And if so, why?  Psychopathic undercover cops in this precinct already have tried to have another dog walker pick me up (while her cop handler and obvious lover coached from the sidelines — I kid you not).  I don’t know if there is a similar or other plan here, but it creeps me out.

Plus I want to put all the above in public record.

‘Trust me, I’m a doctor, this is a medical treatment’ — Dr. Larry Nassar, psychopath, molests young female gymnasts for 20 plus years


Larry Nassar Was A Master Manipulator, But He Didn’t Act Alone

144 Women and Girls To Make Victim Impact Statements at Larry Nassar’s Sentencing

Sexual molester Larry Nassar played the victim in court

Michigan State employees reportedly knew about Larry Nassar’s abuse and did nothing

This saga raises numerous issues.

    1. Obviously he was enabled and protected by others.  I’m sure this included otherwise noncriminal psychopaths.  Protecting other psychopaths (from the empath world) is almost their prime directive — second to protecting themselves of course, but just barely, they take huge risks for each other. . . . But, but . . . are these really risks if no one ever recognizes what the enabling psychopaths are doing?
    2. How could he think he could get away with this, I?  Should psychopaths be considered psychotic as well as congenitally morally insane?  . . .  But, but . . . if he got away with this so long, is it still psychotic of him to think he could?  Who’s more psychotic, psychopaths or those of us operating from ingrained assumed normalcy/similarity bias?  Doctors aren’t supposed to be this aberrant, thus many wouldn’t/didn’t even entertain the possibility.
    3. How could he think he could get away with this, II?  Psychopaths are in a state of personality wide arrested development.  Time doesn’t go by for them.  They are all Peter Pans. Only outside forces would cause a change of behavior.  As far as he was concerned he had a winning system.
    4. Where was the press prior to 2016?  I’m getting more and more convinced that the protection of psychopaths, that the hiding of the true number of psychopaths is not a passive failure of the press, but an active, purposeful effort.
    5. If the press had done it’s job maybe some of the adults told would have thought, “well that’s a very strange story, doctors aren’t supposed to be that aberrant — but perhaps Nassar’s a psychopath,” and pushed for a criminal investigation.  Assumed normalcy/similarity bias assumes there are limits to human behavior.  Psychopaths cross that limit all the time.  A favorite phrase of psychopaths that one comes across all the time (I once heard it directly from a psychopath in a joking situation):  ‘go ahead and tell, no one will believe you anyway.’
    6. Several of the young women giving victim impact statements described how Larry Nassar stared at them during the whole testimony and how surprised they were.  As a psychopath Dr. Nassar felt no guilt, no bad conscience — there was no reason for him to look away.  Or perhaps he was trying one last pity play, a nonverbal pity play that wasn’t even received due to the fury of the testifiers.  Or perhaps he was hoping they would remember the ‘good times’, when he would be supportive of them, even giving them food against the rigorous training rules.
    7. Larry Nassar’s behavior led to suicides, Kyle Stephens’ father and Chelsea Markham.  Kyle Stephens:  “You convinced my parents I was a liar”.  Victim of ex-USA gymnastics doctor says abuse led to dad’s suicide. Unintegratable psychopathic interference (that blows others’s worlds apart) in other people’s lives is absolutely one of the main causes of suicide.  The article also brings up the suicide of one of the victims.
    8. Arrogance is often the first sign of psychopathy noticed Larry Nassar was sometimes arrogant, sometimes nervous, during only interview on sex abuse — Tim Evans’ 2016 interview of Larry Nassar in the IndyStar.
    9. Larry Nassar should not be considered a normal human ‘who went wrong.’  But rather as an emotional/reality illusionist human alternate.  You and I can carry out two, maybe three, mental tasks at one time — psychopaths probably five or so.  Think of the effort it took for him to molest his charges while talking calmly to their parents who were on the outside of the curtain.  They have different brains from us.  Larry Nassar is a pseudo human, a nonhuman human.
    10. The judge, Rosemarie Aquilina, should order that his DNA be sequenced and released publicly.
    11. The Larry Nassar saga represents a massive failure of adults, of adults failing to live up to their adultness.  I’m sure Dr. Nassar considered the parents too stupid to catch him.
    12. On a personal level I’m still totally amazed by this.  20 years of adult failure.  All of the parents allowed the ‘dry reasoning of the mind’ to override their reading of their daughters’ (and now we know, not surprisingly, sons’) emotional turmoil?
    13. I have no strategy that could have reached them.  In this blog, I think I will simply eschew strategy and simply call ’em as I see ’em.  Obviously, readers can take it however they wish.
    14. It took twenty years to control Larry Nassar.  NYC doesn’t have twenty years to control John Miller of the NYPD.  The presence of a congenitally morally insane individual as Deputy Commissioner of Intelligence and Counter-terrorism must be in contravention of the city charter and the oaths sworn to by the mayor and police commissioner.  I’ll front a lawsuit pro se if any attorneys wish to join me in advisor capacities (I couldn’t be disbarred or punished in other ways).